Thoughts, ep 189
2 months has passed by and i have forgotten about my last.
I'm still the way i am, lonely and free till i met you.
You were so nice and kind to me.
I was beginning to like you and well its turns more n more.
I forgotten to overlook the major details.
Until you say it out to me.
One after another i got the news from you and my friend.
It hit me kinda hard but i somehow knew it never gonna happen.
I should have notice it how could i be so bias.
Shouldn't have hope to much.
Days goes by and i have started to see you as a friend
Though i still got the likes for you.
But it will end in a matter of time.
I hope.
Weeks passed.
Things were just as per normal.
A special day came ahead when new guys enter.
And my friend gave me a hint that a certain someone is just like me.
I was happy that i was not lonely anymore in terms of my kind that is.
I didn't know who he is are from the 6 new guys
Since i had been busy with work.
Until his buddy tell me.
I look to him.
So it was you.
You the one who has been looking at me for the past few days when i'm around with you.
I was thinking just why and so I just look back at you for a certain time.
I must say you are cute.
I had the likes for you.
Secretly that is.
My boss has been lecturing to stop playing around.
Oh but what the heck.
Everytime i'm there.
I keep thinking of you.
I wanna see you again.
Knowing that I can see you evryday lol.
I was thinking of dating you.
I never had the chance.
We were really quiet at that time.
Until you talked to me.
It was great.
We finally chat like no one cares.
I finally get to know more about you.
Until then you tell me you are attached.
With my friend that is.
I was surprised and sad that is.
You were attached to my friends whom i been hoping to date.
But there was no news about him.
He was silent.
Now i know why.
So now you and me can only be friends.
But i will always look after you when I can.
I mean we are the only two unique people among the others.
Luckily I never make a stupid move that time.
You were siting beside me on the sofa.
And in my head i was thinking that i just wanna kiss you.
Don't care about the problems.
I just wana do it.
God i must be crazy.
So now I'm still lonely and free.
Some will say not thanks to my best friends.
But still the more friends i have i will still be lonely.
Until i find the person i like.