ep 164

3 head broadway star, ep 164

ep 163

April 27 2008, ep 163

that sunday was just like any other day
Sean has been asking for me to update the website for his company
being interested in this kind of job
so i did it
he wanted me to convert of what i have done to html files
since aspx files cant be used for linux platform

sorry for those who doesnt know that

okok
so while doing the job
i was multi-tasking
was talking on the phone with my best friends buza and shidah
buza was asking if i could print the flyers for fabulous sunday tonight
i was thinking about it
since i am the deal breaker here well coz i own a printer
if i go the flyers will be printed if not then sorryla eh hahaz

they wanted me to go too
knowing that i can't go coz of my parents
they say the decision is up to me
if im not going , buza and shidah not going

so after alot of thinking i plan of going
well i did wanna go
other than knowing that haikal is coming, a guy my friends used to tease me with
i was also on the hunt of finding one song thats been played at fabulous sundays
so its more of a fun time and a mission haha
and some more i manage to finish up the website so well time for a break
was sorry to my parents knowing i can't go out
but oh well i force myself to go out

so pack up my stuff
was wearing a black n white theme for that night
was wearing white polo n black skinnies just simple
and not to forget aizal's hat, hafta return him back

so met up with buza and shidah
and we took bus 30 to vivo city
met up wif aizal and we go hang out at mac at harbourfront mall
was waiting for haikal to arrive

on waiting for him
faizal arrived
oh god he's here lak in white summore
is there any other day that i will not see his face when i go clubbing
dunno y la eh i dun seem to like him
i hope he is not planning anything just to get haikal back

soon haikal came
n everyone was there
we all lepak for a while while i get some shut eye hehe
then head to st james

clubbing was great
miss the atmosphere
very the different between play and st james
well coz of the light effects
i jus luv the light effects at st james

was having fun dancing with aizal buza and shidah
haikal lak always hilang here n there
thnx to him he let me haf the free drink coupon for me to get coke
he knows that i dun drink
so he gave me to coupon while he buy drinks for the others
he really partied that night until drunk the mad mad

as for me i partied that night
but was alert for the song i been hunting
n indeed the song came up
was so happy n next thing i was recorcding it hahaz lame



a video of one of my fren who is drunk
n dier btol nga syiok sendiri

so after clubbing
went to the food centre somewhere at harbourfront mall
after eating n drinking feel energised abit
n the 3 head broadway stars start to perform

ep 162

Overprotected, ep 162

I need time, (time)
(Love)
Joy
(Joy)
I need space
(Love)
I need me
(Action)

Say hello to the girl that I am
You're gonna have to see through my perspective
I need to make mistakes just to learn who I am
And I don't wanna be so damn protected

There must be another way
Cause I believe in taking chances
But who am I to say what a girl is to do?
gotta need some answers

What am I to do with my life?
(You will find it out don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just gotta do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

I tell them what I like
What I want
And what I don't
But everytime I do
I stand corrected
Things that I've been told
I can't believe what I hear about the world
I realize I'm o-o-verprotected

There must be another way
Cause I believe in taking chances
But who am I to say what a girl is to do?
God I need some answers

What am I to do with my life?
(You will find it out don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just gotta do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so o-verprotected

I need time
Love
I need space (this is it this is it)

I don't need nobody telling me just what I wanna
What I want what what I'm gonna (I need)
Do about my destiny
I say (no no)
Nobody's tellin me just what i wanna (do do)
I'm so fed up with people telling me to be-e
Someone else but me

(action)
(yeah, yeah, yeah)

What am I to do with my life?
(You will find it out don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just gotta do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

I don't need nobody telling me just what i wanna
What i want, what what I'm gonna
Do about my destiny
I say (no no)
Nobody's tellin me just what i wanna (do do)
I'm so fed up with people telling me to be-e
Someone else but me

What am I to do with my life?
(You'll find it out don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just gotta do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so o-verprotected

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this is what im feeling right now

ep 161

Picture Time, ep 161

18/04/08

during tuition class






after clubbing


19/04/08

before clubbing


20/04/08

before clubbing
dun ask y


dunno y....guys with shades hot hot hot


21/04/08

after some fun time at jurong east swimming complex


22/04/08

nice view from esplanade


shidah shidah


23/04/08

me,dee and meera




me and haikal







me,fiza n buza


25/04/08

at the tuition centre....waiting for the students to arrive





somehwhere at maxwell

ep 160

Japan vs Heaven, ep 160

ep 159

i hate friday 13th, ep 159

why i hate it coz i really hate it
on friday 13th june i be enlisted to army
its soo coool.....NOT
well what to do, theres nothing i can do about it
so guys i be going on the 13th june

ep 158

the ones we loved, ep 158

Where are the ones we used to love?
Where are the people who seemed the same as me?
Never changing how we feel...
As time moves on we slowly drift apart...
I wonder how things would be...
If you all had stayed around...
I see you passing through my life...
The ones that I know best are by my side

ep 157

just a thought, ep 157

half of me feel like quitting
other half of me feel like goin on
the whole of me feel like drowning

ep 156

4 minutes, ep 156



all i wanna say is if madonna is not in there, i will soo gonna like it

ep 155

I'm Songless, ep 155

I dont talk
I dont think
I dont walk
I dont leave
But I dont stay
dont always wanna make the same mistake

I cant stop
I cant go
I cant relax
Cant be alone
And when I listen to the music
God, you know i just confuse it
I get turned around

And Im runnin
And Im runnin

I can sound all the words in my head but they got no soul
What im trying to say's getting stuck but I get so close
And I'm out of time to let you know
I'm Songless

ep 154

L.O.V.E. - ep 153

what is love?
what is the true meaning of love?
is love a bad thing or good thing?
why do people keep getting hurt in love?
why are there a lot of sacrifices in love?
what is true love?
how does love started at all?
is love a disease?
what's with love at first sight?

this are some of the questions i been asking myself
but to me love is friendship
and i am happy with the friends i have
i love my friends
so....
i'm happy with the way things are :)

ep 152

hope........NOT, ep 152

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

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Used to be my song to keep me strong
the only song that make me not to give up in hope
but well as for now
i dunno
if only i could believe in hope again
coz for now its all about faith im believeing in
and 0% in hope.....seriously

ep 151

sunsilk ads, ep 151

ok yesterday i been noticing those sunsilk ads
when i was on the train to toa payoh mrt
i notice those ads n it got stuck in my mind
then the next thing i saw it again at aljunied mrt
well those figurines or cardboard stand up u call them wateverla eh
they were standing outside the aljunied mrt
kinda surprised abit to c it

den nxt thing
i saw it sumwhr at my home area
those figurines at the hill sumwhr at safra tamp thr
looks like sunsilk going to every area of singapore to show thier ad
it looks nice those ladies figurines
one look like marylin manson the other like one mediacorp artist
lol dun tell me why i tot of dem

ep 150

So much drama, ep 150

After the weeks of me knowing that i be graduating
well alot of things start to happen
i'm not even close to the grad ceremoney and getting my solid hard diploma
and alot of stuff is happening in my life
tot all this drama wud jus happen after

let c.....wad been happening
let start wif me being jobless.....but was not alone

coz i finally made a new best fren - happy happy
n lets just say he is just like meera onli more malay n more guy n less hindi(no offnese meera heeh)
well other than meera i jus luv toking under the sun wif him too same goes wif him

but the saddest thing is dat he had to go off to perth so early
dat i jus cant believe it
n he coming back in a years time
oh god i was like so crying
n yet i be crying again when meera goes off
izzit me or that my very best frens likes goin off

den come the big problem - n more crying
lets just say it has sumting to do wif money full stop
n thus i knew my sis is smiling all the way laughing at me
well i do wan her to feel that
after complaining abt me that i have been getting 'royal treatement' from my parents
i dun wana get this treatment
i dun wana be the special one
takder fairness langsung

ever since my parents dun tok to us much n always go out
me n my sis haf tried to be independent ourselves
n as for me i wana tink out of the box - trying to do something outside my comfort zone
u never know u may like it and surprisingly i did like it
though i do have to be alert for anything

my dad is not like those dads that go screaming n strt killing u for the little stupid thing u done
in fact my mom is more scary den my dad lolx
so i been following my mum lately
n coz without my dad guiding me instead my mum guide me, dats hw i turn out to be


so since the big problem - cry cry
i know i know i really learn my lesson
n my mum has ban me from goin clubbin again
but i beg her if i cud go for the final time

in the end i did - happy happy
i went to st james fabulous with shidah n raihan
in the end we make frens wif 3 other guys - aizal, alif and haikal(dunnola his name)
n i really luv them they r sooo frenly
its very different than hanging out wif my other gang - keyis,shadik and hairman

i must say the place at st james powerhouse is much better than in play
well its big no doubt about it
but wat i hate is going home by the 1st train
i dunno y i hate going home after clubbing before the sunrise
one is surely my parents strt nagging
u noela they will always think "mesti lepak ngan kawan yg bukan2"
i also know about that who doesn't

i m always alert wen i go to dis places
u noela ppl drunk here n thr
drinking here n thr
but as for me hehe i dun drink k , i dun even smoke
though my frens drink n smoke, some tried offering me a drink but i tell dem i dun
budak baik katerkan(rite........)

but that doesnt turn out ot be the final time
coz sum1 insist of goin again
n well my best fren cuzzin wanted to noe how it goes in those club
n yep the past week i went to play n st james again
oh god two times in a row
oh well im happy to mit aizal n alif again, they make me smile........lolx

ooooo
forgot to tell abt this guy who has been harassing me - confuse confuse
well i tink to him wen he c my pics he was like



but for me when ic his pics i was........oh ok
i mean he cutela
but u got the looks oredy wat about ur personality
im nt gonna be ur bf jus becoz i cn use u to show u around kan
dats so pathetic

wats even more pathetic
is he kip tinking of me
missing me n all those mushy2 stuff la
i was like scared at ferst
hmmm hw cn u miss me when we havent even met yet
and all u c r pics of me n u noe pics n the real thing cud look diff
dats for me la coz my pics makes me look cuter den the real me(prasaan)

i tell him nt to go so fastla
we onli just started
heck i dun even know you yet and same goes to you
and you start to fall in love wif me
so not right for me la eh

well i hurt him alot of times
n im really sorry
tot that wud end our relationship
but noo he still goes after me
such a strong guy

so i tot of meeting himla giving him a chance
in the end turn out to be disaster
he was scolding me like crazy
isnt it weird u wanna mit for the first time at a spa
was kinda weird to me
so in tht end had a fite wif him
he was screaming at me on the fone
n i was like ignoring it
tot that wud be the end
BUT he conatct me again
oh god dis guy btol tk stop
so i dunno until now if he still disturbing me or not

well enuff about the guy
i finally got a job
well more like i become a tutor
but well its good i got sumting to do to pay my debts
my mum is happy wif it
dats gd oredy

ep 149

Fabulous, ep 149